I think I can, I think I can...

So life of as lately has been that motivational saying. Some days are harder than others. Like screw the glass, I need a bottle of wine hard. But other days can be a breeze.  The days that are really difficult coincidentally are the days I have no coffee. Mommy +no coffee = " I think I can" mantra.
I love coffee, I could seriously drink a pot to myself. But I don't, I used to but not anymore. Speaking of things I used to do: wear one outfit ALL day,  have energy to do anything,  walk my dog, have some drinks without worrying if my milk was tainted, oh wait I didn't have to do that last one because my boobs weren't  a milk dispenser.

I know it all sounds awful doesn't it?  Well it's not. I wouldn't change it for anything. I have gotten used to not putting on nice clothes until right before I walk out the door and  my hair always some how ends up smelling like spit up.  I can smell B on me when I am not with her and I miss her.  I know we are blessed that we get to "complain" about being tired and what not, and we do not take it for granted. Beyond mommy hood, I feel like my wifeness is slacking. The house isn't as clean as it should be, I forget to kiss my husband sometimes, and when we go to bed, I'm pretty sure I am asleep before my head hits the pillow. I am chalking up my weaknesses to being a newbie at this balancing mommy and wife thing.

What else hmm, my body is not back to normal. Not back to my normal size. Was really hoping i would magically be back to my normal size.  *sigh* sooooooooo I've started working out. Today was day one :). I did some burpees, abs, squats, and high knees. I was dying. I have zero ab strength left.  I figure if I do just a little everyday, or 4-5 days,  I can eventually get to where I want to be. Still have 13 pounds to go.

Berklee is 2 months old, she is  cooing,  smiling, laughing, and drooling. At her 2 month appt she was 12#11 oz, 23 1/4 inches and a ball of cuteness. She is so adorable, so good, and only fussy every once in a while.  She has been to California for a wedding, feet in the Pacific Ocean. She has been to my moms in Omaha, and Matt's parents in Knoxville (Iowa). I think we will be staying home got the next couple months.

"I think I can I think I can" be a better wife, mommy, and blogger.