Well we are 6 days away from Berklee being 1/4 of a year old. Ok so most would say 3 months, but 1/4 of a year sounds more dramatic and that is how I feel about it. I feel like throwing a fit and crying, HOW CAN SHE BE 3 MONTHS ALREADY?!?!?! I cannot believe my baby girl will be 3 months, it went by so fast! I have yet to go through her closet and dresser to box up her newborn and too small 0-3 mo clohing. I cannot bring myself to do it. It needs to be done soon, so I can stop getting annoyed while I shuffle through her pants and onesies finding ones that fit.
This post is titled reflections because I want to reflect on the best 1/4th of a year of my life.
I have looked through the photos on our camera, from her first breath until just yesterday at the pumpkin patch. It is amazing how much she has changed. How have I missed this? Of course I see her everyday and she is beautiful everyday, but she is so different from when I first laid eyes on her. She still has her chubby cheeks and still hates to be moved. But her eyes are different, her cry is different, her head is different (now kind of flat on one side), and her being is different. I know this is a GOOD thing, she is growing, she is thriving-doing what babies should be doing (God has blessed us). But I can't help and feel sad that with every day that she grows she is getting more independent.
This is my baby, the one who made me a mommy, and there are not enough hours in the day to appreciate every little thing about her. I am going to make a pro and not so pro list of her first few months just to help me remember the little things.
0-1
Pro
*She's here, and she is ours (Thanks God, you did well)
*She was an easy baby, hardly ever cried
*She was healthy
Not So Pro
*Waking up 3 or more times in the night
*I felt like a lifeline, and that she didn't "love" me
1-2
Pro
*She was more alert and make eye contact
*That first, real,beautiful smile at ME!
*Still an easy baby
*Still healthy
Not so Pro
*Sometimes we would have a bewitching hour or three
*Her first shots-worse for me I think
2-3
Pro
*She coos, she coos the cutest coos there are
*she gurgles, blows spit bubbles smiles all the time, and has baby laughs
*She is mostly happy
*She turns and looks for me when she hears my voice in a room
*she sleeps through the night
*She loves to cuddle
*She is still healthy (Again, God has blessed us)
Not so Pro
*She sleeps through the night which means in the AM she is a roaring bear until I give her my booby
*She is growing crazy fast. Out of clothes and out of diapers. (Once again, this is a good thing, just on the pocketbook, not so great).
I can't get over how blessed God has made us. We say our prayers every night thanking him for making us a family. And I pray every night that she will not have to stuggle health wise, or see us struggle in that way.
We are fortunate to have our baby girl, and as much as it saddens me she is growing so fast, we are looking forward to watching her continue to grow.
I didn't know you had a blog until this morning, and now I have read all of your posts since Berklee was born. Multiple made me cry (I am such a sappy mom that LOVES my kiddos so much too), but this one was especially touching. You have a great way with words, and I love how honest you are.
ReplyDeleteHave you heard of blog2print.com? I use it to print my blog into a book each year. You can pick the start date and end date for each book, I just choose to do 1/1 - 12/31 each year so I don't need to do any scrapbooking or photobook making. Helps me keep my motivation for blogging.
Thank you Lisa. I didn't know you had one :). Is yours public?
ReplyDeleteI am going to have to print it at the end of this year, I did not know about it so thank you for telling me.