Someone recently said to me "Isn't it hard to imagine life without her?" I didn't really answer because I was thinking "No, it isn't hard, I remember pretty well what life was like without her." I didn't have to think twice about having a second glass of wine, I could pick up and leave to do errands/trips/lunches whenever I wanted. My mind was free from concern and worry; for the most part. So no, it isn't hard to think about my life before Berklee, I loved that life that was only a year and a half ago.
What should have been said is "Isn't it crazy how full your life feels now?" I would have been able to answer that one at the drop of a hat. "Yes, it is crazy how much more love I have for everything and everyone around me. It's crazy how much less self-involved I am; and how 'out of nowhere' I have this instinct to care for my baby, and the want to be around her most of the time. I loved the paths I took in my life before, and I love my new path now. I won't say that I have a different life now, I am still me, but I am on a new journey. I am leading a little girl to the start of her life.
I love the way you think about this!
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